Below are the 7 most recent journal entries recorded in videcormeum85's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, February 11th, 2004
12:26 am	The Soul Reaver So yeah, tuesdays are my hell days. I pretty much go from 10 in the morning till 10 at night. Acting I like and English is okay; today I had to give a presentation on culture and I chose homosexuality, and I was a little nervous to present, but I did fine. My night class is what kills me, like I seriously feel like my soul is being drained from my body and my withered form is left there looking positively merose. And the best part is the class is Gays and Lesbians in Society, something that I thought would interest me, but I honestly feel like it's a waste of time. All we ever talk about is how bad we have it being gay instead of embracing all that we do have. I honestly think I have it great, even with what happend over the weekend. Whatever, I'll do the work and get an A and all will be well in the world of Scotty K. Well kiddos, it's time for me to go to bed. My bed is the shit Current Mood: drained Current Music: "Oceano" Josh Groban (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, February 9th, 2004
3:10 pm	Thank You I just read the posts to last nights entry, and I was honestly brought to tears. I'm so lucky to have such caring people in my life who love me unconditionally. Things like what happend that night are unnaceptable and I wish I had the strength to right the wrongs in this world, but I'm only one person. People like you can to help to make the change too, and it doesn't require a lot. Just three dollars a month provides food, shelter, and medical care to a fag in need. We'll even send you a picture of the fag you helped save... I can joke about it now, but in all seriousness just be cool with people, and the world will turn that much smoother. Again I just wanna thank you all for being the best there is to offer and I hope that the world can learn from the examples that you set. Current Mood: grateful Current Music: "The Origin of Love" Hedwig and the Angry Inch (Comment on this)
12:26 am	Uncomfotable in My Own Skin Last night I went to a party in the Cedarbrook Hill apartments with Mikey and his boyfriend James. I had a great time and met a lot of wonderful people; those who you wouldn’t expect to be comfortable around gay people were surprisingly the ones who were the most friendly. We left the party around two and headed back to Arcadia. I was really hungry so I asked my friend Mindy to come to Michael’s with me. We sat down, had a cigarette and placed our order and not soon after a couple came in and sat at a booth across from us. They were loud (more than likely drunk) and rude to the waitress, and I noticed that the man kept turning around to stare at me. He made a comment to his wife, which I unfortunately could not hear, but I knew that it was in regard to me. I then looked toward the table making direct eye contact with the woman who then proceeded to say “That’s not a man, it’s a boy pretending to be a woman.” Then they proceeded to get into an argument over cigarettes, and the woman called her husband “queer.” She then looked to me and said “You know… happy,” to which I sunk silently in my chair. At this point I was begging for the check to come, as if it would free me from what had happened, but it didn’t. Their words lingered in my mind all night, until I finally cried myself to sleep. What did I do? I had been eating ice cream cake and the icing turned my lips blue, and my shirt was very colorful and form fitting, but what was it that warranted such hatred? I had never been more uncomfortable in my entire life, then I was eating soup and drinking coffee in that diner at three in the morning. I had never experienced homophobia of that degree before, and I had no idea how to handle the situation. Kids my age have called me a faggot before and I would just respond by saying whatever I could in retort. It hurt, but not as much as what happened last night. I would have liked nothing more than to spit in each of their faces, but what would that have proved? I woke up this morning thinking that time would have healed my wounds, but it only made my anger and frustrations grow. It isn’t fair; I shouldn’t have to feel unsafe anywhere because of who I am, and I refuse to let my integrity be compromised ever again. Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: "Song for the Lonely" Cher and "I'm Ok" Christina Aguilera (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, February 7th, 2004
2:37 pm	Cabin Fever Sing with me the Arcadia Weekend Blues. Finding something to do here on the weekends is like finding the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. And even when you are so fortunate as to break the boredom it usually means that drama will soon follow. I hate drama. So today I've been cleaning like a mother, and I took a break to see if, by some miraculous occurance, money had been put in my account. HAZZAHH! there was! So that was kinda exciting. Last night I was supposed to get my hair cut with Mikey, but I got dumped so I watched Interview with the Vampire with Ben and Foxy. I'll probably write another entry later. Right now I gotta go get something to eat. Current Mood: bored Current Music: "You Will Be My Ain True Love" Alisson Krauss (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 4th, 2004
10:54 pm	Quella Fiamma Yeah, if you don't know then it isn't worth me getting into. School work is picking up fast and I'm doing my best not to get left behind, and at the same ensuring that I'm having a good time. One of my best friends is getting married, and while I'm happy for him I can't help but feel a little doubtful as to the outcome of all this. At the same time maybe I'm jealous, because I don't have someone that I love that much, enough to want to share a life together. But do I really want to be that in love? I dunno, I think it's beyond me at this moment in time, but it would be nice ya know? Last night Mikey and I smoked a bowl and ate about everything in his room (oh yeah, even the kitchen sink). Time moves so slowly when you're high, it's an amazing feeling. Food taste better, sounds are enhanced, and smoking feels like breathing in front of the refrigerator with the freezer door open and your head positioned over the ice box. I just got back from smoking again. It's pretty good. Mmmm food Current Mood: high Current Music: Inferno by Robert W. Smith (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, January 30th, 2004
11:23 am	Here Comes the Sun So the weather has been absolutely atrocious for the past few days, and today the sun is finally back. Last night was a blast. Chris came up and we watched House of the Dead with Foxy, Ben, Marie, Holly, and Joe. It was probably the worst movie I've seen in forever and a day, but at least the commentary provided by the peanut gallery (myself included) was enough to overlook the bad acting and poor plot. So... yeah, that was fun. Today was pretty uneventful; I had interpreting lit with Dr. Weenie and at 12:15 I have European Civilization with Haywood, who's wonderful. Well kids I gotta run. Lata! Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: "Collide" Howie Day (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 28th, 2004
12:33 am	For starters... So I've decided to jump on the Live Journal band wagon and bear my soul to the world wide web so everyone can share in the drama of my life. Okay, so today I had fundamentals of acting and it was so not worth me even going. I love laying at the front of the stage watching people trying to improv their way out of a wet paper bag. Then I went to english and had a nice nap, courtesy of the assholes on my hall who make airplane engines sound like chamber music to my tired ears. So yeah... not my fault professor. The gay class got cancelled due to the inclement weather so that was fun, and hopefully we wont have class tom either. Well biatches it's getting late and my attention span is diminishing... So I'll see ya later (3 Comments |Comment on this)